Listening to weezer is so wrong, that it is right

So I am back from the trade show.
Boy was the a bunch of not fun.

However, Howard and I do have the whole temple team saying, "we have to do it right"
Which was funny. I am going to make everyone tee shirts at the studio so we never forget our horrific time at the airport.

The trip made me realize a lot of things, since I got to spend a good deal of time by myself.
1) I have neglected myself terrible, physically the girls in this company were really over-weight and I have gained weight since working for B&N... Gross...
Thur I am getting a bike, I have completely changed my eating habits, and yes I am not drinking until the big "First day of summer" party.

2) I have neglected my artwork. I haven't made anything worth while in a long time... I have not worked on the artist residency that I really wanted, and I haven't made anything that will get me into one of the most competitive programs in the country... so that needs to change immediately.

3) The Lea that has been floating around for the past month or two is not the normal Lea. I have been so cynical, so crabby, so closed off from people. I have let myself get completely emotionally entangled in a bunch of b/s. That is not my character what so ever. Well it is kind of my character, but I have never let it effect my day to day life. Unfortunately I am going to have to kill off a lot of relationships in my life that have grown uncomfortable and unhealthy. Moving away is going to help some of that, realizing what I really want, need and deserve from the people I surround myself with will be another.

4) I have become financially irresponsible. I am spending money like I own the company I work for, not like an employee of the company. Because I have been depressed I have been eating out all the time, buying stuff that I don't need, or buying things for people that they don't need. I have to really think about where I stand fiscally and how my spending is going to effect my move.

As much as I complain about working and my job, I am glad that I haven't had anything handed to me. I have worked hard for the things I have and I am ashamed that I have started taking these accomplishments for granted by spending money unnecessarily.

I had many interesting conversations with MB over the course of the five (then six) days that we were in Florida. I am really happy that I know her. She really is a fantastic person. I am also sad to know that I make people in her life upset because she spends time with me. That has been the standard order of operations at that store. I have never in my life had my genuine interactions with people become such a point of negativity before. It is really hard on my heart to think that people resent my time with people I care about.


In other news, my store has an excessive about of No-Doz.. Didn’t the FDA ban them? I think that the Tyler School of Art might be pushing drugs!